Dear Dad,
I'm listening to your Christmas CD today, "Through the Eyes of a Child". Carol of the bells is especially moving to me. I imagine I am downtown at the Roof with Wes. We look out the window next to our table and see Temple Square beautifully lit for the holiday season. I look over at the white piano, and there you are, smiling at me, playing a special song. I imagine going over to you and telling you how wonderful you are and how much I love listening to your music and just how much I love you. I really do and I'm so proud of you for still trying to reach your dreams.
The last time I saw you was when Violet was born. You came that Monday night and visited with me. Sarah and Matt were there for a little while as well, but then they left and we were all alone. You took pictures with your camera phone and you were so proud of me and thought my little girl was so precious and beautiful. You gave me a little live tree that was all decorated for Christmas. We talked and you reminded me how this past week was the anniversary of your heart attack. You talked about how wonderful life is.
I miss you. It is going to be hard this Christmas. I will think of where you are now and hope you will be celebrating too. Perhaps you are seated at a white piano playing music, hoping I'll be able to hear. I will try and leave my heart wide open this Christmas season so perhaps I will be able to feel a part of you there. I might cry and have some hard moments, but I don't want to shut down. I will watch my precious children. I will see their awe and wonder. I will remember you and know that you are watching them too.
I love you!
Liz
What a wonderful post Lizzy dear. I have been thinking about your dad a lot too this time of year as he always had long Saturdays and picked up extra shifts at the Roof in December. It was his time to shine as he would come home and talk about what local celebraties would come in.
ReplyDeleteI also miss the time he would spend practicing Christmas music at home during the holiday season. It filled the air with a sweet spirit.
On a separate note, I enlarged the picture of Violet from your website as my screen saver. She is so beautiful and I'm sure your dad is grateful for such lovely grand-daughters.
I love you sweetie! ...j