This has been a hard week for me. It is complicated but my husband and I are involved in a court case against a man who has made it his business to harass us. I had to give some pretty personal testimony about periods of emotional distress and some of it involved situations in the past including my parents deaths. It is hard to have to go back and revisit the loses I have experienced and to do it what feels like a hostile environment.
It brought me pretty low these past couple of days and it made me miss my parents even more than usual. I went to bed less than happy last night. I remember a small, but wonderful moment from my dreams last night. I was at my stepmother's house. She was super happy celebrating her birthday. She was all smiles. My father came into the room. He was wearing a typical Bob sweater. He came straight into the room and gave me the biggest hug. It felt so wonderful to be in his arms again. The warmth from that dream hug has stayed with me today. It has helped me feel that I am not alone in this fight and that I am being watched over. I feel a great amount of peace and warmth. I am grateful for this small moment to help me through. I love you dad!
Thanks for sharing this personal dream. Despite the fact life seems so hard without your dad, I know he is near us. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him terribly and long to feel his presence.
ReplyDeleteI know he is happy and gratified by the kind of mother you are to the girls. I also know he loves the girls so much and I believe he watches over them and is concerned for their well-being.
I love you sweetie!